Leave your past in the past

Have you ever been in a situation, where you are completely feel stuck at the same place.

No matter how many steps you take, at the end of the day, you will notice you are in the same place. I lost my parents when I was sixteen; after that everything that happened in my life looks like a nightmare.

Until today, I still feel like it is all my fault that they left so early. If I wasn’t stubborn, and selfish they could have been still here. My life hasn’t gotten any better since they left.

My aunts took turns in allowing me stay in their houses during school breaks. I lived alone in my parents house during school days. I had no friends or family member who checks on me or my well-being.

I was the only child of my parents, and they were very rich, so I basically had everything at my beck and call, except family and friends. Well, I had to believe no one loves me, or cares. I decided to be an island, and never go get involved with people.

I was hurt, and scared at the same time. Everyone that ever loved me, or cares always leave at the end; just like my parent, my twin sister. So, I guess I was born to be alone. Each night is always filled with nightmares of my dead parents and my sister. I knew I will soon lose it as I have no one to talk to. I refused to move on with my life, and let go of whatever that might have happened so far in my life.

Well, that was all that happened in the past decade. I knew I was the one stopping myself from being better, and I was the one scaring people from coming close to me. I decided to leave my past before it destroys my future. Always look forward to what today has to offer, not what yesterday has taken away.