I’m fine 😢

I wanted to talk about it; I wanted to yell, shout and scream them out, but all I could whisper was ‘I’m fine’.

Have you ever been depressed and so clueless about what next you should do?

My life has been full of a lot of ups and downs. I have reached to a point I can’t express myself any longer, all I just mutter is I’m fine.

I was never a loud child, and always stay by myself. I was the only child distant from my parents.

At the age of seven, I was harassed on my way back from school. No one ever cared to ask why I was sad or rarely ate my meals.

I grew up bearing in mind, that I’m alone, and should never let anyone into my life.

When I became a teenager, I faced a lot of difficulties. I had a lot of nightmares, where I was almost raped. I knew it was all that I passed through were catching up with me.

I never opened up to anyone; I preferred dying with everything that has ever happened to me. Who will believe that my all-loving step-dad was a rapist and have been making advances at me?

Mom doesn’t have time for me, she’s happily building her marriage after my dad left; I didn’t want to break it.

My half-siblings sees me as a ghost who will never talk to anyone. They call me a bitter person who will never associate with others. No one ever cares for me, a listening ear could help.

I badly wanted to talk to someone, but all I could say was ‘I’m fine’.